On a warm day in August, ex-boyfriends Coleman Spilde and Patrick Mahony saw each other for the first time in seven years. Among the deluge of complicated feelings these former lovers had, standing across from each other on the street so long after their thorny estrangement, was one burning question: “Didn’t I kill you?” The answer—despite their once mutually assured emotional destruction—was no.

Their podcast, Didn’t I Kill You?, explores the glowing center and dim fringes of cosmic connection and undying love. In it, these lovers-turned-friends-turned-cohosts reconnect across the celestial plane that kept them tied together through seven years of not speaking. Patrick and Coleman have a lot to catch up on, including cultural criticism, addiction to beauty, being working “artists,” and getting what you paid for.

Didn’t I Kill You? is an audiovisual testament to the everlasting power of love and understanding. Coleman and Patrick traverse their history to understand why they missed each other so much, and why they had such an impact on one another. Even after all that time apart, they can still pull each other into wormholes of biting tangents and tangential bits. Fate has demanded that they know each other again. and since they are powerless to destiny, they must become another two gay guys with a podcast, so they don’t lose each other again.